Thursday, May 12, 2011

WHISKEY and CIGARETTES....

 SOMETHING I CAME ACROSS THAT I WROTE AGES AGO...


with my feet against the pavement... slowly step by step setting up this mess... sat at the bar watched my lover while i thought about how i got here and how did i set up this mess... tonight  in  my room my with whiskey in my hand my.. my head spinning my hands numb... my insides burning... and i know i will never get my mind back with the devil sitting on my shoulder and in my drunken haze.. i rather not think of the consequences and this mess....you enter the room and put your head on my chest wrap your arms around me and show me your cuts and scars and the deep wounds and cry while i touch your messy hair and sing you lullabies.. and the smell of the whiskey and cigarettes make me dizzy and forget about the mess and the  mistakes.... you look at me with those big blue eyes and i smile with an uncertainty.. the air night cold and my glass is empty... i look at you your tattooed arms around me and think to myself how long will this last... while the smell of the alcohol and cigarettes make me dizzy and makes me forget about my regrets and my silly mistakes... and you tell me to run away with you and how you will make me happy and i wont be lonely.... oh how lonely it is.. the sound of your big words in stupid heart shaped glass full emptiness....

I WISH THAT I BELIEVED IN FATE .... I WISH I DIDN'T SLEEP SO LATE...